i got a certificate of completion today of my first half of training and then i do general orientation tomorrow :D yay!
feeling numb again tonight. tried to patch it with some old comforts but nothing seems to be working so we'll just have to sleep it away and hope for the best.
i enjoy taking care of other people. it's going to be a part of what i do as my job in a way, and i hope i do it the best i can. always serving people somehow.. i guess i find comfort in healing others and being a guide. i cant say i want to be a teacher as a career cause thats not meant for me. but im okay with being some kind of guide, physically or spiritually. i enjoy being the healer. now i just need to learn how to take better care of myself..
i do everything but listen to my own advice
bruh im so doomed if im already feeling like shit just a few days into work thank god im per diem
ive actually been enjoying my new job, sometimes depression just makes me feel like shit lol. i like it better than my last one that fucked me over. ive been building more tolerance to standing up for long periods of time and the pain that goes along with it, and overall its a bunch of similar stuff every day but its a lot of remembering and its very fast paced and sometimes my brain gets confused but im working on it!! its been good!!
not sure what im even here for or why
whatever. go my semi frequent journal wipe
one day i'll find heaven, either on earth or somewhere else. one day i'll figure it out
im not of this earth and i dont belong here nor should i be here for long
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